A new beginning
Guys! Guess what? I got a job in Cisco. Im moving to San Francisco. Dream job, Dream city. I have a month to move. I really really hope to meet lot of Desi gay folks there. I cant wait to eat in the south indian restaurants. I hope to live downtown within walking distance of the gay neighbourhood and am looking for places to stay around that area. It feels right.
One of my best friends, LordOfHearts, came out. His wife EternalGirlfriend is devastated. Strangely his in laws living in chennai took it well and were comforting her explaining how difficult it was to be gay in india. But her friends in the US are saying the worst things about him.
I sat with her in a coffee shop holding both her hands in mine and all she could say with tears in her eyes was, "I am so understanding of gays, why is this happening to me? This is not fair". "All gay people are evil, I tell you", she says with a teary eyed smile taunting me to react as we both burst out laughing.
Her friends apparently suggested that me, the great duncehappy had somehow infected her husband. I told her that she knew better than that. She said she did, but made me promise that I would never sleep with her husband. I did so.
I dont know weather my move has come at a good or a bad time. I feel like a few more months here and I could have comforted them more. But on the other hand I feel that even my good friends now could not help thinking if somehow I had something to do with him, "becoming" gay. I know no one will say such things to my face. But what if they were thinking it. I cant quite help them.
He seems to be doing okay. We hung out at the mall "not talking" about his impending divorce. I figured he might need a break from all the explaining he has had to do. A five year marriage. Over.
I have arranged for movers, for the car to be shipped etc. I am in the process of packing my stuff. Just over five years. Feels like a chapter is ending. A chapter of what? I dont know exactly, but I am excited thinking about the new people I am going to meet. Who will become close to me? Will I die alone? What if I need help im my old age.
Oh! f*** that. I'm moving to the Gay capital city. San Francisco!!! Where's the nightlife? :)
But seriously, I will find a guy, I will have two kids and I will send them over to my parents house for the summer to get rid of them.
I'm high on SF , right now.
One of my best friends, LordOfHearts, came out. His wife EternalGirlfriend is devastated. Strangely his in laws living in chennai took it well and were comforting her explaining how difficult it was to be gay in india. But her friends in the US are saying the worst things about him.
I sat with her in a coffee shop holding both her hands in mine and all she could say with tears in her eyes was, "I am so understanding of gays, why is this happening to me? This is not fair". "All gay people are evil, I tell you", she says with a teary eyed smile taunting me to react as we both burst out laughing.
Her friends apparently suggested that me, the great duncehappy had somehow infected her husband. I told her that she knew better than that. She said she did, but made me promise that I would never sleep with her husband. I did so.
I dont know weather my move has come at a good or a bad time. I feel like a few more months here and I could have comforted them more. But on the other hand I feel that even my good friends now could not help thinking if somehow I had something to do with him, "becoming" gay. I know no one will say such things to my face. But what if they were thinking it. I cant quite help them.
He seems to be doing okay. We hung out at the mall "not talking" about his impending divorce. I figured he might need a break from all the explaining he has had to do. A five year marriage. Over.
I have arranged for movers, for the car to be shipped etc. I am in the process of packing my stuff. Just over five years. Feels like a chapter is ending. A chapter of what? I dont know exactly, but I am excited thinking about the new people I am going to meet. Who will become close to me? Will I die alone? What if I need help im my old age.
Oh! f*** that. I'm moving to the Gay capital city. San Francisco!!! Where's the nightlife? :)
But seriously, I will find a guy, I will have two kids and I will send them over to my parents house for the summer to get rid of them.
I'm high on SF , right now.
posted by Dunce Happy at 6:01 PM
8 Comments:
Dil chata hai, DH... may you find what you are looking for...
i dont know if i am looking for anything specific. I just need my life to move on from where i am.
i wish i was looking for something more specific. :) but I am happy with my nice quiet single life. I hope to meet new people though.
You will enjoy SFO :) One of my favorite places in the world. Hope you live in town rather than some far-away suburb
Re: your friend who came out: well, better late than never I guess. Atleast this way the girl still has time and energy to start afresh!
I am hoping to live in the Castro within a mile of the giant rainbow flag! Im excited. It is atop a small hill and has a beautiful view of other little hills with littlewhite houses on the slopes. :) the whole neighbourhood is rather cute.
Yeah, She is all charged up now to go to India and fight for gay rights and make gay teens come out when they can so they dont have to marry women and then divorce them or worse yet, not divorce them. Anyways, lives are complicated. Whether or not she is able to do the gay rights thing in India, I hope she finds happiness. I care for them both a lot. I will miss them!
so, DH, have you dropped like a stone into the ocean and dissappeared?
Updates would be appreciated... you have a few folks who are rooting for you, dear!
:) oh thanx anon! :)
SF has been great. i have a boyfriend now. desi of course. :) i did take part in the SF pride this year. it felt great. about a month after i moved here, i came out to my parents. they are sorta in denial and we talk just the same except we avoid talking about homosexuality. so according to me its going great. i have bought a dvd of the touch of pink to send to them. :) i am trying to be more active in the desi gay circles organizing stuff.
there are so many desi folks to actually prefer to date other desis only here in sf. so im very happy. i think all desi gay folks shd move to ny or sf. of course ny is way bigger. :)
it feels good to be fully out. my coming out 'project' is done. :) now, i can worry about boyfriend, family, friends and children. feels good to just think about it.
hey .......like your style of writing...
Thanx. Im not writing anymore, but maybe you can tell me more about you? :)
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