Catching up
Sheesh. I have been absent. I have been going to boystown every weekend since the other weekend. A lot of reading, a lot of dancing and a one night stand later, here I am.
So where do I start? Work has been rather boring. A few projects here and there and a lot of homework reading to be done. I got this huge raise this year that I am completely thrilled. Its almost 4 or 5 years worth of raises together. Apparently they are trying to not lose employees to competitors. So I obviously went on a shopping trip to Chicago. Any reason to spend the night in boystown is most welcome.
I have a week of training coming up in San Diego the second week of October. Look like I am going to be traveling a lot after this month. I will have to go to St Louis for two weeks before heading out to India. Yes, I said. I am finally taking a months vacation to come back to dear ol’ India. I considered taking a break in Amsterdam to do a little bit of gay pilgrimage in the city with it being Europe’s gay Mecca (interesting sequence of words there) and all. But my mom strongly rejected the “ridiculous” idea and promised that she would take me on a vacation within India and not let me sit at home the whole time after I complained that everybody at home was going to be at work while I sat at home. Now, that I have a green card, I don’t have to worry about my visa either.
We are now planning a weeks trip to Kerala. I don’t know how the plans are coming up. I will be India from the 30th of October till the 24th of November. I got the plane itinerary last week and I realized that I had long stopovers in Amsterdam and Bombay. I have to as usual spend about 7 hours in Bombay before I reach Chennai. These hours have previously been rather tiring since its after almost 24 hours of flying and you will have to stay awake for fear of your belongings getting lost or someone slipping stuff into your bags.
So I was talking about my shopping trip to Chicago. During my shopping trips I bought myself 2 shoes and 2 watches, a couple shirts and one jacket before I bought one set of table mats for my brother. I told myself that I have to stop buying myself things. Finally I bought another colourful apron for my brother. I bought a couple India flags which I am not sure what I bought for. I am yet to find anything of interest for my mom. A couple more shopping trips might solve that problem! *wink wink*
One time I went with my desi friend MrSun and his partner MrBear. We stayed at a friend of his called Karishma. She lives less than 5 minutes from boystown and so it was convenient to just stumble in at 6am completely drunk. Karishma is in general a lot of fun. She came to the clubs with us and started making out with the gay guys. MrSun came up with the theory that apparently gay guys normally hang out with a fag hag because, it was less threatening to approach a fag hag and then the fag himself. So if you want to attract guys, then you need to hang out with a fag hag. But somehow I don’t think MrSun needed any fag hags to turn heads. The desi boy was being checked out by everyone who was around. And he was being an absolute pro about the whole thing. Obviously he had done his time in hanging out at gay clubs. He made eye contact at the right time and smiled at the right time. We got to talking to this couple of polish guys who were hanging out and he simply smooth talked his way into getting the guys to ask us both out. His partner was so not happy about it. MrBear stood there a few feet away scowling. After I refused an audition by him since we make too much money, we were finally rid of the guys. I had about 3 martinis over the next 5 hours. By 5am, my knees were refusing to hold me and I was still dancing. MrSun and I were dancing on the speakers while the partner looked on completely bored.
We finally had breakfast in a nearby pancake house and then went to Karishmas place. We did a little bit of shopping and then were off home.
The next weekend there was some Sonu Nigam concert that MrSun wanted to go to which I refused to go to, but I joined him in boystown after that. We had fun again. We talked a lot more this time. MrBear drove back with me. He talked a lot more about how his relationship with MrSun was slowly becoming harder and harder. He was talking about having an open relationship with MrSun. I simply heard a lot of what was being said. But I somehow am not sure how that was gonna help in their case. It’s a really long and sad story but I think MrBear started cheating on MrSun and since then there had always been a kind of an unsaid resentment in the relationship. But since MrSun is unwilling to talk about it, they are somehow stuck in their relationship and they can’t seem to get past it and now they both feel like they are miserable. They won’t even acknowledge that they both are cheating on each other. I thought about it for a moment before deciding that I really had nothing to do here.
I’ve been going out a lot with LOH too within town. His wife EG is always busy at work and so we go out most Friday nights. This weekend we were at a desi dance party and I distinctly felt myself grab his fingers in mine as i was struggling to balance myself, like I would have done with any other gay guy while leaning over to say something in his ear and one hand on his other hip. But still away from everybody’s sight. The moment I realized what I’d done, I pulled back a little bit but he sort of put the rest of his fingers in mine and held on. Awkwardness followed as I stammered and hemmed as I was in the middle of what I was saying and forgot what i was saying. He smiled and he let go the moment he realized that I was squirming uncomfortably. He is slowly but surely getting to my best friend status but its moments like these that are really scary where you don’t want everything you have to be thrown away because he interpreted it as a move on him. After the dance we went out to a diner and had a sandwich. The topic of conversation turned towards his sexuality. I commented on the fact that MrSun had commented on his sexuality. LOH smiled and asked me what I had replied. I told him that I had told MrSun that I didn’t know and I didn’t want to know. LOH asked me why I didn’t want to know about his sexuality. I told him that either way there was nothing that I could do. If he did like guys, then it was up to him to tell me and that I would be perfectly fine with it obviously. If he wasn’t, then that was that. He smiled. So I asked him, “So what is your sexuality?”. He didn’t respond to that question as the waitress come up with water. Our topic of conversation then turned to random things as a guy I recognized came up and started talking to me at the restaurant. After he left we talked about random things about how EG wanted to have kids and that he was not ready to be a father yet. So they were having discussions on when to plan to have a kid. Life is so complicated and yet it is only what we make of it.
On another day when EG was with us, she was telling us all about Karan Thapar and his show. I am waiting to get to India to see the show. Did you know he has a masters in French? Irrelevant I know. But is it really? :) Oh! Let me be.
I had dinner with TheRocks sister this past Friday night, after she had joined my company. She also has a green card and had been working as a stock broker in Chicago. She had moved here after quitting her job one fine day. She just got a job at my company. So she was starting as a technical support person. She had commented on the fact that she was making more money here than she was in Chicago. Which I found rather strange. Anyway, she found the fact that I was gay rather surprising, which I find shocking these days, since I let my gayness flow in and out of me very openly these days.
Since we are talking about gayness, I want you all to watch a video. So on logoonline dot com there is a link to new next now music. On that page you will find a link to a video by Matthew Duffy. I think his song is OK, but he is so cute. I have realized that my type is not a very built guy. I tend to go for guys who are somewhat non muscled – read twink – and who like swishing their hands around. And I find matthew duffy to be my perfect guy. Throughout the video he looks so middle eastern manly man but the way he swishes his fingers around is so feminine. I lovit.
The name of the song is little bird (New Now Next) and since we are on the topic of videos, also check out from the main page the videos on the click list instead of new now next, and then view the video by justin timberlake called sexy back (Click List). I absolutely love the song. I heard it at least 5 or 6 times each night in boystown. Oh and not to forget the romantic duet by Jason and De Marco. Both rather Hot. I think the video is very dreamy.
Mood: Oh darn, I didn’t clean the house today either.
So where do I start? Work has been rather boring. A few projects here and there and a lot of homework reading to be done. I got this huge raise this year that I am completely thrilled. Its almost 4 or 5 years worth of raises together. Apparently they are trying to not lose employees to competitors. So I obviously went on a shopping trip to Chicago. Any reason to spend the night in boystown is most welcome.
I have a week of training coming up in San Diego the second week of October. Look like I am going to be traveling a lot after this month. I will have to go to St Louis for two weeks before heading out to India. Yes, I said. I am finally taking a months vacation to come back to dear ol’ India. I considered taking a break in Amsterdam to do a little bit of gay pilgrimage in the city with it being Europe’s gay Mecca (interesting sequence of words there) and all. But my mom strongly rejected the “ridiculous” idea and promised that she would take me on a vacation within India and not let me sit at home the whole time after I complained that everybody at home was going to be at work while I sat at home. Now, that I have a green card, I don’t have to worry about my visa either.
We are now planning a weeks trip to Kerala. I don’t know how the plans are coming up. I will be India from the 30th of October till the 24th of November. I got the plane itinerary last week and I realized that I had long stopovers in Amsterdam and Bombay. I have to as usual spend about 7 hours in Bombay before I reach Chennai. These hours have previously been rather tiring since its after almost 24 hours of flying and you will have to stay awake for fear of your belongings getting lost or someone slipping stuff into your bags.
So I was talking about my shopping trip to Chicago. During my shopping trips I bought myself 2 shoes and 2 watches, a couple shirts and one jacket before I bought one set of table mats for my brother. I told myself that I have to stop buying myself things. Finally I bought another colourful apron for my brother. I bought a couple India flags which I am not sure what I bought for. I am yet to find anything of interest for my mom. A couple more shopping trips might solve that problem! *wink wink*
One time I went with my desi friend MrSun and his partner MrBear. We stayed at a friend of his called Karishma. She lives less than 5 minutes from boystown and so it was convenient to just stumble in at 6am completely drunk. Karishma is in general a lot of fun. She came to the clubs with us and started making out with the gay guys. MrSun came up with the theory that apparently gay guys normally hang out with a fag hag because, it was less threatening to approach a fag hag and then the fag himself. So if you want to attract guys, then you need to hang out with a fag hag. But somehow I don’t think MrSun needed any fag hags to turn heads. The desi boy was being checked out by everyone who was around. And he was being an absolute pro about the whole thing. Obviously he had done his time in hanging out at gay clubs. He made eye contact at the right time and smiled at the right time. We got to talking to this couple of polish guys who were hanging out and he simply smooth talked his way into getting the guys to ask us both out. His partner was so not happy about it. MrBear stood there a few feet away scowling. After I refused an audition by him since we make too much money, we were finally rid of the guys. I had about 3 martinis over the next 5 hours. By 5am, my knees were refusing to hold me and I was still dancing. MrSun and I were dancing on the speakers while the partner looked on completely bored.
We finally had breakfast in a nearby pancake house and then went to Karishmas place. We did a little bit of shopping and then were off home.
The next weekend there was some Sonu Nigam concert that MrSun wanted to go to which I refused to go to, but I joined him in boystown after that. We had fun again. We talked a lot more this time. MrBear drove back with me. He talked a lot more about how his relationship with MrSun was slowly becoming harder and harder. He was talking about having an open relationship with MrSun. I simply heard a lot of what was being said. But I somehow am not sure how that was gonna help in their case. It’s a really long and sad story but I think MrBear started cheating on MrSun and since then there had always been a kind of an unsaid resentment in the relationship. But since MrSun is unwilling to talk about it, they are somehow stuck in their relationship and they can’t seem to get past it and now they both feel like they are miserable. They won’t even acknowledge that they both are cheating on each other. I thought about it for a moment before deciding that I really had nothing to do here.
I’ve been going out a lot with LOH too within town. His wife EG is always busy at work and so we go out most Friday nights. This weekend we were at a desi dance party and I distinctly felt myself grab his fingers in mine as i was struggling to balance myself, like I would have done with any other gay guy while leaning over to say something in his ear and one hand on his other hip. But still away from everybody’s sight. The moment I realized what I’d done, I pulled back a little bit but he sort of put the rest of his fingers in mine and held on. Awkwardness followed as I stammered and hemmed as I was in the middle of what I was saying and forgot what i was saying. He smiled and he let go the moment he realized that I was squirming uncomfortably. He is slowly but surely getting to my best friend status but its moments like these that are really scary where you don’t want everything you have to be thrown away because he interpreted it as a move on him. After the dance we went out to a diner and had a sandwich. The topic of conversation turned towards his sexuality. I commented on the fact that MrSun had commented on his sexuality. LOH smiled and asked me what I had replied. I told him that I had told MrSun that I didn’t know and I didn’t want to know. LOH asked me why I didn’t want to know about his sexuality. I told him that either way there was nothing that I could do. If he did like guys, then it was up to him to tell me and that I would be perfectly fine with it obviously. If he wasn’t, then that was that. He smiled. So I asked him, “So what is your sexuality?”. He didn’t respond to that question as the waitress come up with water. Our topic of conversation then turned to random things as a guy I recognized came up and started talking to me at the restaurant. After he left we talked about random things about how EG wanted to have kids and that he was not ready to be a father yet. So they were having discussions on when to plan to have a kid. Life is so complicated and yet it is only what we make of it.
On another day when EG was with us, she was telling us all about Karan Thapar and his show. I am waiting to get to India to see the show. Did you know he has a masters in French? Irrelevant I know. But is it really? :) Oh! Let me be.
I had dinner with TheRocks sister this past Friday night, after she had joined my company. She also has a green card and had been working as a stock broker in Chicago. She had moved here after quitting her job one fine day. She just got a job at my company. So she was starting as a technical support person. She had commented on the fact that she was making more money here than she was in Chicago. Which I found rather strange. Anyway, she found the fact that I was gay rather surprising, which I find shocking these days, since I let my gayness flow in and out of me very openly these days.
Since we are talking about gayness, I want you all to watch a video. So on logoonline dot com there is a link to new next now music. On that page you will find a link to a video by Matthew Duffy. I think his song is OK, but he is so cute. I have realized that my type is not a very built guy. I tend to go for guys who are somewhat non muscled – read twink – and who like swishing their hands around. And I find matthew duffy to be my perfect guy. Throughout the video he looks so middle eastern manly man but the way he swishes his fingers around is so feminine. I lovit.
The name of the song is little bird (New Now Next) and since we are on the topic of videos, also check out from the main page the videos on the click list instead of new now next, and then view the video by justin timberlake called sexy back (Click List). I absolutely love the song. I heard it at least 5 or 6 times each night in boystown. Oh and not to forget the romantic duet by Jason and De Marco. Both rather Hot. I think the video is very dreamy.
Mood: Oh darn, I didn’t clean the house today either.
posted by Dunce Happy at 9:51 PM
3 Comments:
how come, all the creatures of indeterminate sexuality always 'kinda' hit on u, and put in de centre of things?????
....for better or for worse!
maybe because they probably arent and its all in my imagination.
but seriously, there is only one person of indeterminate sexuality in my life right now. who else is there?
even otherwise, my psyche is dysfunctional in the sense that it is most attracted to things that it cannot have. that may be part of the problem. hm.... Also, the excitment in a slight touch by a person u know well is not in the kiss by a random date.
your frikin hot, dude!
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