Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Thoughts about the Gay Life

Over the weekend I had come out to yet another friend. I was worried that he would hear about me being gay soon since another person in our group was also gay and I had already given him the permission to spread the word. In a way, I find it really easy when other people spread the word since I feel that I don’t have to do the dirty work then. But there are those people that I want to tell since I’d rather have them hear it from me than from someone else.

It is unfair that gay people have to tell people who they like to have sex with. Do straight people ever have to tell us who they like to have sex with? It’s just uncouth. It’s something that is not polite. So why should gay people alone have to do it.

Anyways, after I told him, he was still in disbelief and it took some time for the information to completely sink in. I took the time to rattle on and on about how I was in love with this guy in my college and how I finally gave that up, painfully, and told him that I was in a very calm place right now in life and was happy and he was ok with the whole thing in general.

Jerry called me up yesterday and we talked for a while. But the conversation was continuously being interrupted. Some Indian guy who had recently moved to the US had met me in the parking lot today and had asked if he could look at my company’s classified ads to find a roommate. So I had invited him home and was helping him look at the wanted ads in my company intranet. After he left, I called Jerryback up only to hang up again when my friends “Lord of Hearts” and “Eternal Girlfriend” showed up to pick up a sleeping bag and some comforters, since they had some people staying over at their house, who had come from India in order to perform in some Indian classical dance recital. After they were gone, Jerry and I made plans to go to the Big City. We wanted to go before I left for my three week vacation that is coming up. We are planning to start out this Saturday morning and hang out until late and then go clubbing at night and stay the night at a friend’s place. But we will be back by Sunday afternoon. That’s the plan.

My personal goal for the week is the go to the gym everyday and do a little bit of cardio. So my plan for today evening is to go running for about 10 to 15 minutes and then do the ellipticals for another 10 or 15. Let’s see how that goes. I am also supposed to pick an aerobics class and go to class sometime. But I haven’t been able to pick a class yet. I wonder what spinning is like. I really would like to try it sometime, but I haven’t been able to go to the intro class yet. The intro class is only on the first Monday of every month and I still haven’t been able to attend that class. I wonder if maybe I should just walk in to class sometime.


A friend of mine had talked to me about “Blue Water” at the club this weekend. My head is still trying to make sense of it. He had made a statement when BW had passed by me and flicked my head and said a quick “Hi” to me. My friend had commented that BW liked me. So I made a generic statement, that he always said, that everybody likes me. So my friend re-stated and told me that BW had told him that he liked me. A note here for the readers perhaps that BW hardly speaks any English and my friend speaks Spanish and so he talks quite a bit with BW.

I was taken a little aback by the whole thing. I made a statement to my friend that I knew that a little bit but that nothing would really come of it since we both didn’t really speak much of the same language. But deep inside me, my head is starting to churn the possibilities and I generally tend to churn out possibilities for the next few years when I think of such things. Could I actually make it work with someone who hardly speaks English? Someone who smokes. Since other than these two, I really like the guy and think that he is very Hot!!

Oh well, but I have already talked to BW and told him that I didn’t want a boyfriend and he had said that he didn’t either. So we both had a lot of time to decide what we wanted. So there is definitely no rush there.

I also talked to another friend of mine over the weekend. Remember, I told you guys that I had been recently informed that he was gay. So I called him up and we were chatting for a while about how each of us had finally come to terms. It was nice talking to a gay person, but strangely I didn’t feel like that really made any difference at all. It was still the same as old times. I had driven up with him on a 17 hour long road trip, when I moved up here. Apparently, we both never knew that either of us was gay. It had never even occurred to me.

Oh, by the way people, I have added a lot of links to this webpage about the languages that I know and the places I have been to, in my life, in an effort to give a greater insight about my life. Please feel free to browse and email me if you want any more details.

Quote of the Day: Life. Serenely Frightening.

2 Comments:

Blogger Vikster said...

I'm linking to your blog if you don't mind..

Wednesday, October 12, 2005 11:53:00 PM  
Blogger Dunce Happy said...

but of course...(i dont mind, that is)

i read your blogs sometimes. i find them mmm...hm......the word is ......ok lets say entertaining. :) yeah, im a regular shakespeare.

Salsa boy and his fishes????!!! .......Ahem! - you cant see me rocking my head from side to side in disapporval but i am.

catch you later! :)

Duncy.

Friday, October 14, 2005 6:34:00 PM  

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